st john

i'm really very sad now.. i've been so misunderstood and so utterly condemned by what she said.

she says:
1. my standards are unrealistically high.
2. i'm too fierce/scold too much.
3. i belong to another era and must accept that things have changed.
4. i don't respect them.
5. i make decisions without consulting her.
6. i over-rule and over-dominate the sec 3s.
7. teachers need rest too.
8. i'm not recognised/qualified.
and alot of other things which i'm really in no mood for.

he says:
1. he wants to do something for comp team but now can't due to the very tight timeline.
2. he will ferry the comp team from bishan mrt to guangyang.
3. (he gave a very lame and time-wasting "pep talk".)

to her:
well. run the corps yourself then. you're only ruining it. if you seriously think that you have good standing in the zone, then you really have got NO IDEA. the only reason why BP can still stand strong is due to Mrs Toh's standing in the zone. not you. never has been. in fact, the zone hates you.

if you think you've done alot for the corps, then just walk a week in my shoes as an instructor.

well, none of your instructors are recognised. the only one who is is currently on study break. dumb fool.

to him:
please. you're such an irresponsible and lazy bum. you'd never do anything of that sort. in fact, you always and only create unnecessary trouble.
for example, when i asked you to photocopy notes (whether during pre-NCO course or just now) so that i could get back to the cadets, you would rather waste time chatting than to help me do it. how supportive.

but what i'm most angry AND upset about is this: he says that i said that my comp teams are just going for NFAC "to fill numbers".

I WILL NEVER ON MY LIFE HAVE EVER SAID THAT. DO NOT MALIGN ME!!

may i just remind you that you were the one who said that st john comp team is not band and hence need not train so hard. you are such an utter hypocrite.

i value my comp teams WAY ABOVE THE CORPS..!! especially the AA team this year. and of course, last year's AA team. i will willingly miss classes just so that i can be there for them during their training. it broke my heart when the other TIC told me to go for PD on the NFAC day. it hurt me so much that i can't be with them. HOW DARE YOU PUT SUCH WORDS INTO MY MOUTH?!

~!@#$%^&*()_+

to steph/CK/SJ/JJ: enjoy. run the corps yourself. i need to cool off. after all, my exams are just as important as everyone elses'. it's my graduating finals for goodness sake.