updates

so, life hasn't been too happening lately.. except that i'm going to be fully ENT trained so i've been pushed really hard to do all sorts of ENT stuff..

and, i'm going to do my 1st night shift next weekend!! haha.. *anticipating*

and i FINALLY decided to do something about my not-so-good hearing and tinnitus.. so i've got an ENT appointment booked on tue, to see Julian Lee.. well, at least he's the only one who doesn't know me, so not so awkward i suppose.. hope everything turns out ok..

driving test's on 26/12/08. wish me luck! but i'm darn scared and sure that i'm going to fail.. :(

i'm going for Singapore Trauma 2009!! and DSTC!!

i'm going for Singapore Trauma 2009!! and DSTC!! wahaha!! happy!!

for more details on DSTC (definitive surgical trauma care course).
http://www.ttsh.com.sg/new/specialtiescentres/ttsh-nni-dstc.php

bugs! it's damn bloody expensive can?

BUT!

i'm going for it, ABSOLUTELY FREE!!

pays to be an OT SN in a hospital which is the "regional trauma training hub".

and i'm also going for Singapore Trauma 2009!!

*super duper ooper happy*

they're both in april 2009. DSTC's 2-3 april and Singapore Trauma is on 4th april.

but i'm already damn hyped!

haha!





*audrey ADORES trauma*
*she wants to be a trauma surgeon!*

bedside ICU handbook

i've got an absolutely cool book about managing critically ill patients in ICU.

it's got drugs, algorithms, flowcharts etc etc etc. very very good!

han, eat your heart out!!

sorry sir

当昨天的伤口还在隐隐作痛时，当被伤害的阴影还挥之不散时，我真的没有勇气面对明天。

很荣幸您会邀我同您站在起跑点一起开跑，但我真的不敢面对众人的目光。

我的心魔让我没能好好的投入这个计划。它令我无比地畏惧明天所能带来的伤痛。

你知道吗？那件事对我的自信心与自尊心的打击实在太大了。它让我今天的伤口不仅还未复原，甚至还发了炎。

理由再美，再伟大，依然没能说服我这是个值得的投资。

我知到付出不能要求回报。但我要的不是回报，只是不受伤而已！

这个要求真有那么过分，那么不可行吗？

我不愿意辜负任何人。而我实在没把握做得好。

感觉

我终于确定了我对他的喜欢，只是一种习惯。

看见他和她在一起时，我内心竟什么感觉都没有。

没有嫉妒。没有痛楚。

没有悲伤难过，同时也没有开心喜悦。

两位都曾是我的好朋友，而心里静静的祝福却始终没能说出口。





前几周约见了一位好朋友。当她发现我外公去世不到一个月时，她的反应竟是我为何不显得很难过。





我是一个没感觉的人吗？

那么疼爱我的人走了，我没显出悲伤。

就算喜欢他只是种习惯，心了怎么可能一点感觉也没有？

我，好无情啊。

我的世界里，只有我。好自私啊。





难怪我会一直被排挤。

难怪我会没人喜欢，更别提爱。





我最好开始准备孤独终老吧。