st. john

As I sit crying, I wish my tears can bring away my sadness.

To the sec 4s, I just want to say, thank you.

Thank you for giving me the chance to lead you.
Thank you for giving me the chance to guide you.
Thank you for allowing me to learn with you.
Thank you for letting me grow with you.

Just, thank you.

I can’t believe that my babies are leaving me already. It seems as if it was yesterday that I starred appearing back in corps. And when I read serxing’s blog just now, I feel guilty. In her blog, she commented that I try very hard to shelter you guys and bond with you guys. But I think, I’ve failed. Terribly. I haven’t really given of my best to you, I haven’t bonded with you guys.

I still have so much more to teach you, so much more to share. Yet, you’re leaving me now. What happened to all the time? What happened? What have I done for you? Will you even remember me? I feel guilty. I feel sorry. I’m, and grieving.

I’m crying and the tears won’t stop rolling. I can’t concentrate on preparing for my OTC stuff tomorrow, yet, I don’t really care. Cos, I’m losing my babies, the apples of my eye, and I can’t stop crying.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being such a lousy instructor then, and for being an even more terrible officer now. I’m sorry I’ve not really given of my best. I’m sorry I haven’t given you better. I’m sorry I haven’t fulfilled all my promises. I’m sorry I didn’t give you more.

Vitamin C lyrics
"Vitamin C Graduation (friends Forever) lyrics"
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, and we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:.....
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:.....

We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?(somehow)
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]



Dear Father,
Please bless all my babies in their future endeavors. Please take care of them and be with them. Please keep them safe from harm and evil.

Father help me. Help me be a better leader to the next batch of NCOs. Help me Father, to do what I meant to do, to show them your love, and your grace. Father, make me in your image, that I may lead righteously.

Father, please take away all these tears that won’t stop flowing, father, please make my heart whole again for it’s now broken.

Father, please be with me tonight.

All these I pray in Jesus’ most precious name, Amen.





[audrey is terribly miserable.]