2 years on

this day 2 years ago, i fell from the sky.

this day 2 years ago, i hurt so bad that i could only run away.

this day 2 years ago, i was so convinced of my utter failure and worthlessness.





2 years on, nothing much has changed. i'm still the utter failure that i was. i still hurt so much that i try and escape at the slightest. and i'm still lying in the crater i fell into.



2 years. such a short time, yet such a long time. it took so much out of me to even try to move on from there. it takes more out of me these days to even face the possibility of meeting someone from then.



i miss the days of old so much, yet i fear them just as much.





j, thanks for being here then, and for continuing to be here now.