1 year has passed since you left us.. how have you been? i never thought i'd miss you as much as i do.. i mean, in your later years, i wasn't all that close to you.. i visited once maybe in a couple of months, often times longer.. it wasn't until the last few months that i visited more, saw you regularly.. yet looking back, it feels like just superficial hanging around, pretending to fulfill my piety duties..
returning on impulse to spend that last night with you, yet not saying goodbye when i left for fear of disturbing you. that broke my heart. it did then, it still does now.
crazily eating all the egg ball biscuits i could find to try and capture memories of you was my way of trying to deal with it then.
when i found the exact egg ball biscuit you used to buy for me a few days ago, my heart filled with joy at the thought that i could once again feel you by my side. yet the disappointment that followed when i realized that things won't ever be the same, ever, was crushing.
these 2 years have got to be the worst in my life so far, and to deal with the loss of you just made things so much more horrible.
i was in no mood to celebrate my first birthday without you. the festivals that followed your passing feels weird.
are you safe in paradise now? have you prepared a room for me?
i miss you ah gong.
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why does it have to be winter when you're alone?
The Apostle's Creed
I believe in God the Father Almighty,
Maker of heaven and earth;
And in Jesus Christ
His only Son our Lord:
Who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, dead, and buried;
the third day He rose from the dead;
He ascended into heaven,
and sitteth at the right hand of
God the Father Almighty;
from thence He shall come to judge
the quick and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the holy catholic church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting. AMEN
Maker of heaven and earth;
And in Jesus Christ
His only Son our Lord:
Who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, dead, and buried;
the third day He rose from the dead;
He ascended into heaven,
and sitteth at the right hand of
God the Father Almighty;
from thence He shall come to judge
the quick and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the holy catholic church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting. AMEN
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why does it have to be winter when you're alone?
~about her~
- -stars fall from the night sky-
- destined not to be loved, she loves herself. loves indulging in unrealistic daydreams.
-you-
Trust His Heart
All things work for our own good
though sometimes we can't see how they could.
Struggles that break our heart intwo
Sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what's best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
And you just can't see him,
Remember He's still on the throne.
God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
When you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.
He sees the Master plan
He holds the future in His hands.
So don't live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
But He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him
though sometimes we can't see how they could.
Struggles that break our heart intwo
Sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what's best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
And you just can't see him,
Remember He's still on the throne.
God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
When you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.
He sees the Master plan
He holds the future in His hands.
So don't live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
But He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him
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