well, life has, as usual, not been going well.. alot of unpleasant things happened these 2 weeks.. some my fault, some really not mine.. so many things i want to talk about, but i can't find anyone who would understand..
haven't been online for 2 weeks already, so was blog-hopping.. and i realise, no matter how hard i've tried, i've been utterly forgotten by everyone. even those whom i hold most dear. i always drive people away from me. and the only word i can use to describe me now is probably lonely.
where's everybody? when everyone's out having fun, do anyone ever remember me at all? when will people start to think that maybe even i need some concern too?
everything i've ever put in effort at, i suck. sj, where i invested most of my time and effort. moving on so well without me. having fun and everything, yet no one remembers me. it pains me to know the count the number of people who even remembers my birthday, much less bother to buy me a present.
i'm just so unimportant to everyone.
alex, my, cher, erene, farah, jj, ck, steph, zili.. all the people whom i used to see so much of, spend so much time with.. they've all forgotten me. it's just as if i've never existed..
my is enlisting on fri. and i don't even know until today. am i really still a friend?
i don't even have a cca or anything else to go to or put in effort for besides work. my life revolves around work and home. nothing else. no activities. no interest group. no cell. nothing.
then why do i want to continue to exist?
Monday, July 21, 2008
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