bad...

just came back from chalet today. and it's really bad. first, the chalet literally stink to the heavens. then, very few people actually came. plus, there were some un-invited guests. furthermore, there was not enough food and no drinks. it was a whole series of mis-adventures... poorly organised and terribly carried out. and weiliang really super pissed me out!! but that's another story.

but while i was lamenting the lousiness of it all, i realised that i've been too wrapped up in my own world. for though i can sense his sadness, and i could guess the source, but i couldn't and didn't do anything about it. so when we talked and the beach last night, his tears humbled me. i've been too uncaring and insensitive. what kind of person am i?! i promised to be there for you but i wasn't. i said i would be the lighthouse to lead you home and away from dangers, but where was i?

a thousand things to say but this is not the place to do it.
gosh. i feel lousy.
can't believe i actually abandoned my family and friends for this lousy experience. but then again, without lousy experiences, how would i know which ones are wonderful?




[the road may seem arduous now. but when it's all over and you finally look back, you'll see that the overwhelming obstacles now are but grains of sand in your shoes.]