..rumblings..

sometimes, i just find SJ so pointless..!! it's like, the corps has been going downhill for years and nothing i do seems to make even a little bit of difference!! from the glory days of old till the state it's in today, i've been through it all and i feel really disheartened by what i'm seeing..

the standard nowadays is so low that i really can't recognise the SJ i grew up in anymore..

• NCOs are ill-disciplined.
• sec 1s still can't even manage 'sedia', 'senang diri' and 'ke-kanan lurus' properly.
• sec 2s are not performing.
• cadets who choose days with SJ training to fast and then use it as an excuse to fall out.
• sec 3s who can't even march properly.
• PT lasts about 15 mins.
• sec 2s took a whooping 27.30 mins to change from full-u to PT kit.
• sec 2s who think that PT kit means wear SJ t-shirt.
• sec 3s who still fidget in parade.
• sec 1s who don't even know how to reply loudly and clearly.
• NDP contingent which don't know 'belok'.

and MANY more...

demoted a sec 2 cadet to the sec 1 squad today. didn't make me feel good and really didn't want to do it but her standard is just so atrocious that she simply needs to re-learn everything from the basics.

in fact, alot of sec 2s are really still at the sec 1 level and the sec 1s are performing like fresh recruits!

i don't know.. all that's happening is just so discouraging.. and it doesn't help things by being so time-consuming..

i can't figure out what i can/should do to make the situation improve even by a little bit.. it's worse than teaching an infant how to walk.. the corps has regressed from a toddler who is running about to an infant capable of only crawling..

is it because of me that things are the way it is? did i not do enough? are my training methods wrong?